Tis the time to blog once again.

Went out for a semi-class dinner at Swenson's yesterday. The guys were basically talking cock, as usual (that Weechin and Keith arh) but it was funny and I really will miss the guys when their duty to country comes calling. Really missed the class because I haven't seen them in a long time but it was nice to catch up with each other.

Happy Birthday YY, even though I'm kind of early since yours is tomorrow but I hope you had a great time with us today and yes I know you love us to bits. =)

Today started off with YY's birthday celebration with Sonya at Bakerzin and then to a movie, joined by Nette, to see Wallace and Gromit which is really good and quite funny so if you have the time go watch it. I didn't really want to watch it at first but don't regret it. Today seemed like the day I ate lots and lots of sweet stuff. Ugh. Full on desserts. Haha. Didn't have money to buy the higher class Long Island Tea to celebrate the New Year but Dad said something about beer and peanuts. To which my sister said "World Cup today?" Haha. Cos we always associate beer and peanuts with football. And Dad only watches World Cup/Euro Cup. Even those Champions League matches shown on Channel 5 are rarely watched by him unless it's the finals. Go figure.

Anyway, since today is the last day of a very eventful 2005...

I'm thankful...

For getting closer to God and people in PoP cell (Iloveyouguys)
For getting through the As
For having wonderful memories with people in a53
For having wonderful memories with my Mango Tree friends and my other friends
For my family who had to endure me during the studying period

Definitely to God, Family, Friends... and er, haha, Chelsea for making me have a more optimistic and cheerful outlook on things. To show to people that I CAN be happy and cheerful and sweet. Haha.

Because of the above...

MY BEAUTIFUL SMILE IS SEEN MORE OFTEN THIS YEAR.

Okay, ahem. Enough with the self praise. I do hope you've seen a change in me this year (not as grumpy blah blah- I really have been happier this year and I'm really glad about that) and I look forward to 2006! There's really been too too many great memories of 2006 that ensures I cannot name my favourite one but I'm thankful. Definitely.

May 2006 be for each of you a fantastic year. Cheers.

Hope eternal-the waitings been long
It's high time I get rewarded-YeAh

You know why I dislike playing online games like MapleStory? Because the people who mainly play are children in primary and secondary school. Not only do most of them, the bulk being Singaporeans, not understand the meaning of the word 'share', they are too immatured to see reason even when it is clearly explained to them.

I was playing quietly by myself trying to kill monsters to level up and actually enjoying myself without my sister constantly telling me it's her turn (she's at school)-digress a bit but she always uses the laptop and then complains when I use it (as if I use the laptop longer than her)-Anyway, this %^&*&^ girl started annoying me by telling me to switch channels or else she would defame me. (This game has different channels and you can fame and defame people) Obviously she's too trigger happy for her own good. I couldn't take it even when I was explaining to her that we could share and there would still be enough monsters for both of us to kill but NOOOO.... she just kept typing 'cc pls cc pls'

So I calmly said that if she didn't want to see my logic, then she was immatured and I felt sorry for her. Furthermore, you're typing on a keyboard. Would it kill you to type the full message? Probably. Considering that I suspect she types one letter at a time and pauses to find the next letter for a few seconds. This seems petty to be blogging about something like that but she got me so irritated I quit the game.

I really can't understand why people like to use shortforms on a keyboard. Sometimes it's okay but too much of it so much that I cannot understand what you're trying to convey is just TOO MUCH. And that girl ought to be shot for her immaturity and for just being alive to annoy me. She should be dragged across hot coals by wild horses and then beaten to death by maniacs.

Now you know- tis wise not to get Christine all riled up.

Even if it is for something as haha immatured as a computer game.
Would this serve to show that I'm equally immatured? I suppose not. Since her immaturity extent is so much more than mine. I do hope you agree.

Okay. I shall go do something that will make me happy. Like write a birthday card for YY.
And I've finished my Chelsea book. Boohoo... Gladys, can I have the Mourinho biography next? Haha... I love my book of Mourinho quotes. I love his philosophy simply because I believe in a similar philosophy.

These past few days have seen me wishing for VCDs of chick flicks to watch. Not only do they have bright colours and pretty guys/girls, they contribute to the romantic factor that seems desperately needed by me. Haha. It doesn't exactly have to be chick flicks either, they can be romantic comedies.

I cannot believe how not going for a run for a couple of months could have caused my whole body to ache when you decide to pick it up again. Ugh. Soreness in every part of my body. Still, it feels really good after a satisfying run to feel the sweat. Like detox. It's the during that I wonder if I'm mad to be running and running on a treadmil that virtually takes you nowhere even though it says you've been running 3.5km but you're still stuck on the same spot. (Considering how much I've run this year I think it's extremely funny that my good friends had to drag me across the track during my 2.4 in secondary school) I prefer running in the park but lately the weather's been cranky so showers/hot humid weather have to be expected and the smart thing is to run indoors.

Hmm... I like confident guys. Yeah well, who doesn't?

That was a weird bit of randomness.

Man City 0-1 Chelsea. Hooray.

It's really fantastic considering that we lost to them last season in the first game (our only defeat) and then drew 0-0 against them in the second game. And Lamps wasn't playing... Dang league record broken. But Joe Cole's goal keeps the 3 points. Yay!!! And Man U tied with Birmingham... But Liverpool beat Everton.

Also received a letter from LSE saying that there're waiting for more applicants but I'm in their internal short list so even though they haven't given me the offer/accepted grades thing, it's still a piece of good news that I haven't been rejected outright. But I suspect this means that others have been rejected.

I have to go shopping for new clothes again because CNY is coming. I hate navigating through crowds. It seems weird that the christmas season is barely over and you're seeing CNY videos being played on TV and hearing CNY songs in shops. I shall go mad soon. One more gong xi... (Not that I've been out since the 25th) Slacking at home reading the Word and the Chelsea book. Dad told me not to buy a dress because it won't look nice on me. Honestly. His frankness leaves much to be desired. Definitely not one to mince his words.

Today's drama was pretty good and hmm... some of the church people are really really good actors! The message was good and even I as a Christian was touched and reminded again of God's great unconditional love for us.

Chelsea 3-2 Fulham (!)

I'm hoping Man U lose their match but it's looking very very unlikely since they're playing West Brom and leading 3-0. And I was hoping Owen would score for Newcastle in their meeting with Liverpool but Liverpool's leading 2-0 so boohoo. You see, in this game of football, not only do you have to make sure you win, you hope that others drop points. That keeps your lead.

But I'm more annoyed with the Chelsea match score. Quite sad that. But then again 3 points is 3 points. And since Mourinho is happy with the result and the spirit of his team, I'm fine with it.

Feeling rather annoyed as well at comments made by supporters of other EPL clubs on certain message boards. Rather immatured in their thinking and criticism of Chelsea. Or of any other club than their own. There's a very fine line between just mere commentation and sheer criticism. While I admit that not all they say is rubbish, shall we say that certain fervent supporters cannot bear to admit that clubs and players and managers other than their own are great? I can. I definitely think Fergie is a fantastic manager. Look at his trophies. I will not hesitate to say that RVN and Rooney have been great this season because they have been. And the reality is that I'm commenting on Man U players! Thierry Henry has been great too. So if I can do that, why can't other people just sit back and appreciate good football and great teams-even if the team ISN'T their team?

And I just checked my UCAS track and I've been given a conditional offer to Manchester. Birmingham and Brunel have sent their letters but I doubt I'll be going there. Manchester... is asking for AAB which is not a grade I expected them to give, ABB would have been nicer. So would LSE ask for AAA? Hope not.

Merry Christmas!

I've had a wonderful christmas this year. Absolutely wonderful. Great company, good food... Celebrated christmas early on the 23th with the cell and invited YY so you just know that it was going to be a great day. Thank God for bringing so many wonderful people into my life. Just today (25th) the cards that some of the cell members gave me had written stuff that described me as cheerful with a great heart which while I cannot fault that... but you know I'm the kind more likely to say the glass is half empty than half full... so either you don't know me THAT well or church and God gives an instant lift and cheers me up. (I suspect it's both since I only got to know these great people this year but I do hope to know you guys better as time goes by and everytime I experience God I just feel so happy) I'm really happy with all the messages and the thankyous because not only have I made an impact in your life, YOU have made an impact in mine. (Just to highlight a few: CherHao's card made me laugh because of the Chelsea Chelsea and Lala and Jude made their cards which were so cute)

Anyway, yes, really enjoyed the cell christmas outreach, had a good time at my Aunt's and then at a family friend's place and rounded off the whole christmas thing with church in the morning and relative dinner thing as usual at our place. The relatives, especially the cousins, were easier to talk to. It somehow gets easier every year. Bless.

The wishes of Merry Christmas from friends certainly made my day.

And most of all, the true spirit and meaning of Christmas was felt.
I thank the Lord for the greatest gift anyone could ever give.

We were the reason...

Tis quite sad that I haven't done a good job of updating this blog this past week when it's been full of exciting events and fun people.

Monday was spent with Huiyi. We haven't had the time to catch up with each other so we had a nice lunch at Fish and Co. and then spent the time shopping for christmas presents. Tuesday was spent with Natalie at Paragon's Sushi Tei and christmas shopping. (Or rather buying materials to make christmas cards because a certain person called John Teh told me I was lazy because I wanted to just give people chocolates instead of making cards) Wednesday was spent with Gladys and Jing with the rest of her friends exchanging christmas gifts. (They gave me All the Way, Jose which is yes, a book on Chelsea's winning season which I've already read about 100 pages of the 260 or so pages wah) Today was supposed to be spent with Hwee and Chermaine for a nice tea but there's the time problem and me being without money, so it shall be rescheduled and I shall be going off to Hougang Mall soon to return library books, print prom photos and then off to Kovan to get a nice top and skirt for my aunt's christmas/house warming shingding on Saturday. Friday's the cell christmas party so I also have to get the presents for the gift exchange. This week has been packed with fun.

Made all the more fun by the thought that Chelsea beat Arsenal 0-2 at Highbury, a feat they haven't managed to accomplish in 15 years.

Made all the more fun by looking at the gorgeous pictures in the X:Infinity artbook. A more worth it buy than X:Zero which has more ugly pictures than the former. I want it bad.

Made all the more fun by going to Hugo Boss at Taka and looking at the gorgeous duster and going to Eastchamp to look at the Armani sunglasses and knowing that with a job, the possibility of me getting these expensive goods is not an impossibility. (Not that I've confirmed the job yet but technicalities technicalities)

Made all the more fun by the ego boosting courtesy of fantastic reviews for my piece of fanfiction which I continued after more than half a year of dragging my feet because somehow the ability to write fiction well was distorted by the clinical writing of history essays that really... lacks passion. (One simply does not write "Hitler should DIE a horrible death for what he did in his plan for world domination. That evil SOB"-Not that my fiction was that emotional either, just an example)

Camp was awesome. Fantastic. My only regret is not staying throughout. Reflections in MWWG blog. Love my group, love my friends, especially love God. Though Clara tried to whack me with her leg when I bunked with her and Eugenia. I suspect she was aiming for Eugenia. It's tough trying to sleep between the 2 of them because Clara is just... also don't know how to put it. But she and Eugenia and everyone else made the camp fun.

Bought Christmas presents today. Spent alot of money. But had fun with Gladys. Looking forward to the next week, which begins tomorrow, where I'll get to see people I haven't seen in a very long time. And people that I love come back from their holidays. And it's Christmas. I'm feeling the spirit now. Mhhmm.. will blog more later I guess.

I think I feel much better now. Even though my parents are still putting pressure on me in ways only parents can and still be totally oblivious to the fact that they are, I'm feeling more at peace now. Perhaps it's the thought of going to church camp tomorrow, I need that time with the Lord. I need to just turn to Him because it makes me feel so good to talk with Him.

It's going to be my first church camp since I always had Guides camp during the time they had their camps. At least they made it later in December this year. I really hope the camp restores my faith in people, in seeking meaning in life. Because I recognize what I've been feeling--what, not why. Emotionally drained and emotionally tired out.

Gladys can be so weird sometimes. Hmm... she can talk talk talk talk talk and irritate me sometimes because of that but it's okay I guess since sometimes I just want to listen to someone else talking for a change- that girl can talk more than me!(don't get offended ok girl-you know it's true ha) but she can be so nice and sweet at others and just listen to me vent and go on and on about myself. I cannot imagine working with her because sometimes we're too alike that if we worked together we'll end up hating each other. Haha. But yesterday... I really wanted to give her a hug for making me feel better. Iloveyougladys. Evenwhenyoucallmechristie. Oraddapoo.

Hugs people.

I feel like shit. Inadequate, medicore, disappointed. Not just in myself but in the people whom I expect to be there for me. Of course their busy-ness cannot be faulted or be considered a crime but there just seems to be a feeling of abandonment-from certain people but I assure you I don't blame anyone (well maybe a bit but who doesn't sometimes-yes, I'm grateful for my friends but I wish I was as appreciated as I appreciate them). I certainly don't write this in any relation to anyone nor hope any offence to be taken but the mind is at a rather low level at the moment. Hope it goes away soon, as of yet it hasn't since the start a few days ago from last week, and it better go away soon because the torrent of emotions welling up inside is no cause for celebration.

This seems too carefully worded to convey the real feelings. The words should simply be "FUCK THIS" because I hate feeling this way. I need prozac or something. Or at least some form of understanding. With my luck, some of you are going to feel insulted. I hope you don't. Because it really isn't anyone's fault. I can't understand myself why I feel like this.

I'm back from what proved to be a rather disappointing trip to Malaysia. I shall do in point form what I remembered about the trip.

-snapping at my whole family in the morning before leaving
-trying to flag down a cab where we live is NOT a good idea
-sitting at the steps of the travel agency filling up departure cards
-dad telling us to move our butts or die by carbon monoxide poisoning
-stubbornly refusing to move
-observing a cute westerner and wondering if he was on the same bus
-finally moving our butts
-sitting in the front seats of the double decked bus at the top deck
-sitting directly opposite cute westerner
-watching him wear cool sunglasses and wondering why did not have one to protect from sunlight
-plugging ears with ipod and falling asleep
-waking up at customs
-sleep again
-waking up at rest stop where had lunch of fishballs and chicken and then buying those snacks that one often buys when going to Malaysia-found corn candy-OMIGOD
-slept somemore
-reached hotel and slept again
-went out for dinner-Jap food
-too many cars on road, cross here cross there almost get killed
-TV had Starsports so caught the Bolton-AstonVilla match, no ESPN so no Chelsea.
-Chelsea 1-0 Wigan- Hooray for Terry's header
-celebrated with sis by jumping on bed
-went to bed

-woke up late for breakfast
-where is the pancakes?????
-skipped lunch because we were sleeping
-went for bak ku teh- ewww... not my fav, I generally don't eat stewed pork
-went to Sungei Wang for shopping without sis, that bum
-bought a Chelsea poster
-bought nothing else because parents do the walk by all the nice shops thing
-complained throughout about their lack of interest in shopping and why they only let me buy ONE poster

-went to visit my grandma in Klang
-she kept piling food on us
-went back to Sungei Wang to get another poster
-couldn't find shop
-walked for 2 hours trying to find shop, that place is like a maze
-finally asked and it was in the shopping mall that was linked to Sungei Wang
-what the...?
-sister ended up buying the poster I wanted so we basically walked for 2 hours to get Her stuff
-watched a movie on TV called "My Girl" where sis and I cried buckets towards the end

-home again
-stomachache
-rushed through customs, actually dumped my bag with my mum and raced through metal detactor to get to toilet
-had no choice as the queue for the bags thing was too long
-policemen looking at me weirdly as I rushed through
-home sweet home

I think this trip was primarily designed to make me appreciate Singapore.

This week has been one F-ed up week. Truly rates as one of the most screwed up I've ever had.

Therefore I am now pleasantly buzzed on Long Island Tea!!! A very nice combination of tequila, gin, vodka, triple sec and coke. Nice.

I know this is going to sound really clingy I'm sorry but I've been feeling really alone these few days. I want lots of hugs. I want to be surronded with all my friends who love me to bits-even though some of them may not express it as passionately as I do. =) Something wistful.

I've somehow been disappointed slightly as a result of the events of this week. (Said in no real relation to anyone but just a general feeling) But nonetheless I still loveyoualltobits.

Tell me you love me (and make sure you mean it) to make my day. =)

I love my Chelsea and Jose Mourinho. Blue is the colour.

Holidaying in KL from 10th to 13th.

I'll see you when I get back.

I feel so weirded out. So ignore the grammatical mistakes if there is any.

My mood swings are too frequent. I'm putting it down to PMS. And probably the fact that I have piano tomorrow after the lack of practicing for almost the whole week. Well, at least I have a new year's resolution of "Must practice the piano daily".

Went for Harry Potter (yes, finally) yesterday. I loved it. Even though I spotted so many many mistakes in the interpretation of the book and the scenes but it was good. And I absolutely adore Tom Felton. And the Weasley twins are just too funny for words. All in all, a good show. Though the part of the maze could be done a bit better other than the fact that the maze was closing in on the characters throughout the task. What happened to the other creatures that were supposed to attack the characters? The new Dumbledore was weird, there was a slightly youthful energy that doesn't suit the character. But the 3 main leads have definitely grown up. I would have liked Snape if it wasn't for the fact that we know he's an evil git.

Had a very pleasant MRT ride home smiling at a gorgeous blond guy. We're talking about a real blond englishman. He moved to sit next to me when there was a seat open. And we just sat there smiling at each other. How weird. I should have said something. The only words that were exchanged were "excuse me" and "bye". The former when he went to sit next to me and the latter when I left. I should read tips on flirting for goodness sake. Oh well, maybe he was attracted to my innocence. Ha. Maybe that was a form of flirting though I didn't know. The smiling probably was.

Though I support Chelsea, I acknowledge that Man U are a great team and I'm shocked at their placing in the Champions League. They aren't even in the Uefa cup. I watched some of the match and I don't like the way it was played. I hate watching games where the players fall to the ground after a challenge and clutch their leg in pain when you know they're just playing up to the referee. And having said that, I don't like the way Essien tackled during the Liverpool match. I don't like the way Liverpool played, with that kind of defending but the tackle was really quite bad.

Fucking irritated. By everything.

My KOOKY classmates decided on the spur of the apparent moment to do a jigsaw puzzle instead of watching Pride & Prejudice as planned. I was on the way there, (couldn't Kbox with them so was going to meet them at Marina), and then received a phone call informing me of that very pleasant fact when I was on my way there. Needless to say, I am still miffed about it. Wasting my time, my money (45 cents is still 45 cents considering how poor I am this holidays especially after prom) and questioning my sanity. A jigsaw puzzle. I understand the need of finishing it, my family can finish 1000 pieces in a few hours as can be seen by all the puzzles framed and hung up in my house. But really. I'll probably be fine about this in a few days.

Then Shop N Save did not carry the flavour of the vodka cocktail I wanted to buy for the Chelsea-Liverpool match. Then no one was free to go out with me on Thursday and I really wanted to go out but of course it's not my friends' fault that they aren't free. My last free day before I leave for Malaysia and then have church camp for the rest of the week when I'm back.

Then I continued my chick lit reading where I got very depressed about my single status. On normal circumstances, when I'm busy going out with friends and doing stuff, and NOT PMSing... this would not be the thought that enters my mind because it screams desperation which I assure you I'm not. Yesyes, I do not PMS all the time. Especially not this year. But lately... hmph.

Then Chelsea 0-0 Liverpool. At Stamford Bridge. My dream when it was over of Chelsea winning 1-0 with a goal by Lampard did not help matters. Especially since it wasn't true. It was so real. I was hugged by Mourinho. Boohoo. I could feel the softness of his Armani coat! (That reminds me where is my Armani sunglasses that until now I haven't gotten??)

Then just now trying to fill up the relief teaching application form online which is so not user friendly but I have no choice but to fill it up thanks to mum sitting by my side constantly nagging at me to DO something.

Okay so I sound very whiny, very immature and somewhat crazed. I guess I'm just tired of things not going my way. I apologize. But after ranting I feel better. Now I just feel like shopping for shoes. Ugh. I have a weird mind that jumps from stuff to stuff. That must be a sign that I'm feeling better.

I've added the prom photos. Lala. But I'm putting up one photo of my classmates and the mango tree pals here. The rest are mostly my a53 classmates. I look very pink and bright and cheerful. Heehee. It is not red. No no red. Haha.

http://xtine87.shutterfly.com/action/

I'm supposed to be blogging about prom aren't I. I will. When the pictures get loaded into the computer. Because I am too lazy to do so at 12.38 PM.

Way better than Sec 4. I actually thought my hair was a bit much for prom, but when I got to the hotel room, everyone basically had very made up hair. I think my dress was the most colourful one as well, considering that most of the people had black. And I also found out that once you put a guy into a blazer/suit, anyone... well, almost anyone, can look good. We took so many pictures and basically... it was a good prom. Aside from the fact that I was underfed. Didn't get back to the hotel room until 4 because we went to a pub and had drinks. mhhm. The guys aren't THAT great drinkers. The Ritz is very good at service.

Suddenly there ain't much to blog about prom after all. Aside from me having a good time and spending it with great great people.

Mum's been annoying me with "getajob getajob whydon'tyougetajob" I'm trying darn it, but you think so easy to get a job? I don't even want to start so soon, can we just do it in Jan? Grr. It's tough to get a job when the pay is miserly and you don't want to go to the opposite end of Singapore from where your house is situated because the bus fares go up when you're not a student. Getting very irritated here. An accumulation of things that have irritated me no end, especially today! Stay away from me. If you want to make me happy, getmeabloodyjobthatsnearmyhousewithflexiblehoursbecauseistillhavethingslikepianoandalife.

Look at what my sister did! She made the Mourinho blog skin! The green part is a football pitch, part of Stamford Bridge in fact! It's a wee bit blurred but you can go to Cheryl O on my links to see the actual thing! She claims her skills have deteroiated since her last graphic was done in June as the laptop hangs when she does graphics but since she did this and also my blog's skin, I'm more incline to say it hasn't. Anyway.. Mourinho looks so good in the center. I love him.

My weight is back to pre-camp level! Finally, after 2 days of fretting about the whole ping pong state of it all. That didn't really stop me from eating chocolate or cheese sausages for supper though.

Something tells me I should be wondering why I'm up so early sitting in front of the laptop. I woke up at 730am and couldn't go back to sleep. I doubt the reason is the sheer desire to go for prom. Yes, I'm excited about it but not to that extent because the worrier in me tends to think that something just might go wrong, like I break a heel of the shoe or worse my ankle (even though the height of the shoes are okay for me), I forget to bring something or other like my prom ticket (better go put it in the bag now) or money... Ha. This is insane.

Worries are to be left behind.

Prom will be fun simply because you're spending it with the people you know and love.

I read my birthday card from a53 again yesterday after my billion attempt at trying to clean my room. The floor can be seen in patches now. I do the cleaning in stages it seems. Anyway, I was so touched by what my friends wrote... Yes, Yux, I will always be the Christine you know and love. Yes, Hwee, my life will be filled with Teeheehees. Iloveyouguystobits.

And... I watched lots of cute guys on Tuesday. On TV la. Okay, first it was Utt in Oh Carol where he looks extremely droolworthy in a suit and I have decided that I don't care what Jia says about he being hers because I would like to marry him and have his children. Somehow I want to marry lots of people and have their children. My life ambition is really quite sad if that's truly the case. Tiramisu had the guys called Steve and Marcus, don't know the name of the actors, that were quite good looking... Marcus is like this sidekick who makes funny comments and sometimes looks blur but so cute! And then I watched the Chinese drama at 9, The Rainbow (?) where the guy who acted as Jianyi is also quite good looking. Then I watched EPL highlights and I had my fill of Chelsea players.

I seem so superficial, talking about guys that look good. But I'm not. Ha. I just like cute guys. Who doesn't?